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The journal of Charles H. May
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I know it has been a couple of years since I posted to LiveJournal. The simple fact is that Facebook has taken over my social networking needs.

However in case there are some of my LiveJournal friends who are not also my Facebook friends I feel I should let you all know what is goin on.

First, I have been accepted to the Master of Divinity program at Chicago Theological Seminary, and this coming Friday I will be moving to Chicago to start school.

Second, in April, after nine years together David solaswolfen decided to end our relationship. This was not and is not a mututal agreed ending, this was and is a dumping. David moved to Chicago in June to start a new job and for the last two months I have been trying to pick up the pieces of my heart and life while still moving forwards towards seminary. For the record I still love him with every fiber of my soul. I miss him terribly. But you can't make someone stay with you when their heart is telling them to go. Someday perhaps I will get over this loss and be able to love another. Though it has been two months since David left me and I still cry nearly every day.

Before anyone starts to wonder, I was accepted to Chicago Theological Seminary before David decided to end the relationship. So my moving to Chicago next week has nothing to do with David being up there already.

Those are the big developments in my life since I made my last LJ post. I don't know what the future will hold. I hope and pray that I will succeed in my studies and will adapt to living alone in a new city. I have started a youtube channel with video journals to help me process around the break up and the transition from partnered to single and from Belleville to Chicago. Feel free to look them up.

I most likely will not be making any more LJ posts.

Good Bye


Chazz

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It is with a heavy heart that I announce the pasing of Jeremy Normand. Better known to furries as Phenobarb T. Wolf. His mother found him passed away last night. Remember to hold your loved ones close and cherish every minute you have with them.

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Thank you for being a friend. Thank you for the laughs.

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Rest in Peace, and thanks for the laughs.

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It is with a heavy heart that I must announce the passing of Howard Wayne Smith.

Howard was David solaswolfen's grandfather. He was admitted to the hospital on Monday for digestive issues and passed this morning from complications of a heart attack.

David is in shock at the moment. I will be there for him.

Howard was a ganuinely good man. He did his best to understand the relationship I have with David and it was through his intervention that over the past few years I had been included in the variety of family functions held by David's family. He lost his wife of fifty years in 2005 and a daughter in 2006. I was there last year when we nearly lost him and it was evident to me that he was ready to go. I knew then that the next major crisis would be the last.

Funeral arangements are being made as I write this. That being said I have the following to say.

To all who read this, hold your loved ones close and remember with joy those people in your life who filled you with happiness and then left to cross over to a better existence.

To solaswolfen, please know you can lean on me and I will be your strength through this. I love you yeserday, today, and tomorrow.

To Mr. Howard Smith, welcome home. I am sure you are happy to see your wife and daughter again. Thank you very much for your grace and humility in this life. Thank you for welcoming me into your family when other would rather I had been excluded. You have earned a rest. Have a safe journey and may your transition be a smooth one.

That is all for now. If David makes his own post about this I will edit this post.

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٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ Please post this to your LJ if you know someone (or are related to someone) who is an idiot. Idiots affect the lives of many. There is still no known cure for stupidity, but we can raise awareness ...... 93% wont Copy and Paste this, will YOU be in that 93%

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In memory of family and friends who have lost the battle with cancer; and in support of the ones who continue to conquer it! Post this on your LJ if you know someone who has or had cancer. 93% won't copy and paste this. Will you?


RIP Mary Frances Noblet-Mabe, Gertrude Allione, Charles Edwards May, Mary Ann May, Winter Wren

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I just read that Rush Limbaugh was rushed to a Hawaiin hospital after collapsing with chest pain.

I thought the big ball wasn't supposed to drop until tomorrow night.

And for those of you out there who are worried be might be taken from us. Fear not. After all, only the good die young.

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If you are reading this, and would like to receive a card from David and I please respond with your mailing address.

Please do this even if you have receivied cards from us in the past.

For your security all comments are being screened.

Thank you.

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A Christmas Carol

Christmas time is here by golly.
Disapproval would be folly.
Deck the halls with hunks of Holly.
Fill the cup and don't say "when".

Kill the tukeys, ducks, and chickens.
Mix the punch, drag out the Dickens.
Even though the prospect sickens
Brother! Here we go again.

On Christmas Day you can't get sore.
Your fellow man you must adore.
There's time to rob him all the more
the other three hundred and sixty-four.

Relations sparing no expense will
send some useless old utensil,
or a matching pen and pencil.
"Just the thing I need. How nice."

It doesn't matter how sincere it is
nor how heart felt the spirit.
Sentiment will not endear it.
What's important is the price.

Hark! The Herald-Tribune sings.
Advertising wonderous things.

God Rest Ye Merry Merchants
May ye make the Yultide pay.

Angels we have heard, on high
tell us to go out and buy!

So let the rock of sleigh bells jingle
hail our dear old friend, Kris Kringle.
Driving his reindeer across the sky.
Don't stand underneath when they fly by.

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Will the person on my friends list who subscribes to the zoomdoggle feed kindly reveal yourself?

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It is with a sad heart that I announce the passing of Bea Arthur, Tony and Emmy Award winning actress.

Rest in Peace Bea. Your kind is not often seen. Thank you for the laughs over the yeasr.

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Your result for Which Were Animal Would You Be? Test...

You are a Were-Bear!

60% bear, 40% wolf, 10% horse, 50% tiger, 30% leopard, 40% fox and 20% rat!

Bears are predators. Unlike other animals as a were bear you will see colors, have an excellent memory, and be very social. You will keep your intelligence, but you will be very curious wanting to explore your new body and strength. When you want something nothing will keep you from getting it. Contrary to popular belief bears are not mean and malicious beasts. They are very gentle, affectionate, and devoted to their young. They communicate using body language.


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Well I just finished watching the inauguration of Barack H. Obama as the 44th President of these United States. I was very impressed with the ceremony as well as President Obama's inaugural address.

In the midst of it all though one thing really irritated me.

Chief Justice Roberts had only one job to do today. He had to adminster the oath of office. The oath has not changed. There are numerous examples of the oath being given. Many of them are even recorded in either audio or video format. Then could someone please explain to me how the Chief Justice of the Unites States Supreme Court, can fuck up an oath that has existed for centuries and has been said by 44 different people over the course of our nation's history?

In case you missed it or do not know what I am taking about, the presidential oath of office goes accordingly "I do solemnly swear (or Affirm) that I will faithfully execute the office of President of the Unites States, and will to the best of my ability preserve, protect, and defend the Constitution of the United States". The president takes is prompt from the chief justice admistering the oath.

Here is what Chief Justice Roberts said "I Barack Hussein Obama do solemnly wear that I will execute the office of President to the United States faithfully"

I mean he only has to say one sentence. He has months to practice it. And he fucked it up.

Fortunately it still counts, but come on.


God Bless our new President, and God Bless The United State of America.

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What fictional high school—from tv, film, or a book—would you most like to attend? Or would you rather never go near high school again, fictional or otherwise?


Without a second's hesitation, Hogwarts. Though I don't know if that would qualify as it is kind of a middle/high school in one.

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Back from MFF and Thanksgiving; both were decently pleasant and it was good to spend time with friends and family.

But.. If you haven't heard about it from </a></b></a>solaswolfen or I by now, we've been robbed. Early Sunday, while we were at MFF, we got a call from our upstairs neighbor saying that the apartment had been broken into, he could easily see that there were several items missing, and that some of the rooms looks ransacked.

The little kitties are fine; a little traumatized, but they've recovered. Value-wise we're looking at about $7200 stolen: televisions, computers, monitors, jewelry, guitar.. water-pik, blood pressure monitor, breakfast sandwiches, waffles, frozen garlic toast. The frustrating part is that we did not have renter's insurance, so whatever doesn't come back through police investigation, pawn shops, etc.. we have to replace.. ourselves. Obviously, we don't care so much about the food as the computers, guitar, and some of the jewelry: the things that either can't be replaced (information, pictures, antique watch)or will take a substantial amount of time and effort to recreate.

Since the added stress here, we've decided against sending out cards for the holiday season this year. Also.. we've completely lost the file that we had all of the addresses. :p

Right now, we've borrowed both a television and a laptop for maintaining sanity and communication. A new cable modem and router have been purchased, so we've at least got that much up and back.

At this point, I'm still optimistic about getting some of our things back, but if we don't hear again from the police before the weekend, I'm going to start looking at the pawn shops myself to see if I recognize anything. If I do, I'll alert the police to what it was and where I found it.

Here's hoping..

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Ok people, it's time for the bear to bitch.

Apparently the hot tub at the Westin Chicago Northshore is closed for the entire length of Midwest Furfest.

Why, you may ask, would a hotel shut down such a fabulous amenity as the hot tub on a weekend when they were completely sold out and had lots of people who would probably LOVE to relax and enjoy the benefits of a hot tub.

Well it is because two people (presumably furs) who do not have the sense that God gave a turnip were caught having sex in the hot tub. As such the hot tub has to be emptied, completely sanitized, refilled, and brought back up to temperature.

The following message is made in the off chance that whomever it was that did this is reading this journal.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?

If you were able to gain access to the pool area and hot tub this means that you were a guest at the hotel. You obviously had a room key since you needed it to get into the pool area. So why for fuck's sake did you choose to screw in the hot tub. Why didn't you go to your room if you had to participate in that activity?

Not only have you made it impossible for the other guests at the Westin to use the hot tub, you have damaged the reputation of the convention and the fandom as a whole. This is our first year at this hotel and one of the first things that this new hotel has to associate with us is your completely inappropriate actions.

I hope you have been perma-banned from MFF because if I ever find out who you are, and if I ever cross your path, there will not be a word in any human language to describe what I may do to you.

You know I. realize furries like to emulate a variety of animals. However when it comes to mating practices please let your humanity take over.


Edit: The hotel has graciously reopened the hot tub. It is warm. It is relaxing. It is good. Thank you Westin Chicago Northshore for being so understanding.

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solaswolfen and I have arrived. We are at the Westin in Room 320. If you wish to reach us use our cell phones.

Chazz: (618) 772-9952
Solas: (618) 772-9951

Looking forward to a fun relaxing weekend.

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It is with much happiness and great pride that I get to make the following statement.

Happy Birthday solaswolfen.

It was 26 years ago that you came into this world, and I am so very happy that you did. For the last six of those years you have given me a reason to get up in the morning and a smile on my face each night as I go to bed. I can not even begin to imagine my life without you.

Happy Birthday my dearest. I love you.

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